Thursday, September 23, 2004

WTF

What the hell have I been doing with my life. One of my favorite lines from "South Park" is "There is a time and a place for everything: College." Ok, I'm here, I've been here for three years and what the hell have I done? University years (especially the undergraduate years) are supposed to be the ones when you (dare I use this sappy line) grow as a person. The way I interpret this is that I should have at least scored a few points against me on the purity test. But no! I'm still alone, I still don't know jack, I don't have a job (or for that matter any cash), a car, a social life, I don't even keep up with the news. All I do all day is sit on my ever expanding ass and think about dinosaurs, about increasing my pathetic fossil collection, check my e-mail and occasionally watch a movie or a little porn. One of the highlights of my drab and dismal week is when I get a call from my Mom and I spend an hour convincing her that the money she's spending for my education is well spent. I appear to have the interpersonal skills of a salamander. I can't even call myself the biggest fucking nerd I know. I've lost my identity. I lost it about three years when I moved to this frigid country. It normally takes me until finals to get this bitter and spiteful at life but I guess it's just building up faster now. And you know what, I think I'll rant like this a little more often. Maybe people will actually start reading my website instead of just seeing that it's about paleontology and fucking off to go see which celebrity was arrested again or which movie crashed in the box offices.

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